808s & Heartbreaks

unfortunately,

2011 has been just like 2010, 808s and Heartbreaks. I seem to run into the same meaningless men with the same crazy personalities. At twenty years old, i'm not looking for my husband but i am looking for something steady, amazingly beautiful and a chapter in my life i can say was an Experience. I feel I've lived a long enough life to for once, atleast experience LOVE in its purest form, just to taste it, savior it and see if I'll began to crave it. I check up on my Facebook and it just breaks my little heart that I haven't found what so many of my "Friends" have. Someone they can call their own or their right now.

My sister says I am depressed, because all i want to do is Eat and Sleep. Getting me dress is hard, but in my mind I wear my highest heels and my cutest outfits and wish to be going somewhere. I feel like I'm a lost cause. Every year I want to progress, somewhere. It's already Mid-October and I can count 2011 off as a Wash. I just want to go to a Club in dance my pain away.

i am just going to focus on my building my brand.
focused on my life.
my weigh tloss-or lack thereof.
and how i can better me to be better for someone else.

i am just ready to settle. but with the person of my dreams.
wish me luck and positivity.

- xoMJ