hey ma,
never really gotten use to talking to a tombstone, i believe i don't need to visit you HERE if i already talk to you HERE *points to heart*. i'm convinced you aren't quite happy with my decisions in life because so far i haven't been basing them on my OWN life. it's been about others for so long that i am completely tired. drained. with people and life itself. i'm sure you don't want to hear that kind of talk from me, but it is what it is. as you know, life has been extremely hard since you left and i believe it'll continue to be like that for a very long time.
but how's AFTER life been with you? *nervous chuckle* just some humor i've created to get pass a lot of the bullstuff. you know how i've been. i wouldn't mind some responses back. but i guess i'll have to wait for that through dreaming. it's been a minute since you came to me in those, what's up with that?! i clearly wait to have one with you in it but you've been M.I.A. i guess you giving me time to get my stuff together, huh? yeah? i kind of figured. no love lost, of course.
but today isn't my day, neither is father's day. it's apart of the calendar but just like valentine's day and even christmas, who says I have to celebrate it?! *folds arms stubbornly* yep, thats how i feel!
let go of anger? i have none. SIMPLY put, i just don't like people. and i hold no one responsible for my choices because i let it get like that. but still, i'm sure people do these things to me because i have no parental support. so I let them get away with it. i have to be my own parent, become stricter. yes, i agree!
well, let me be on my way to getting my life in tip top shape. =)
this conversation was great, i'll let you get back to it. i know your busy in AFTER life, *kicks rock nervously* more corny humor.
ok, i'm done.
this time? next year? GREAT! i'll be looking forward to it.
i love you, beautiful. rest in peace! <3
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